i had a horrible nightmare last night or rather early this morning.
i dreamt that i've lost my younger sister. FOREVER.
i was so sad...yet i just couldn't break down into tears.
all i can do was just...look at her go further and further away...
and recollecting the scene when she was dragged away from me.
for once, we were so close and yet so far.
i've always thought she didn't hold an important position in my heart.
but now i know.
i do love her.

at once when i awoke from nightmare,
i looked at shadows of items caused by the ever beautiful lighting in my room.
then i heaved a sigh of relief.
i was so glad.
and i leaned over to my sister.
and pet her head.
covered the blanket for her.
and fell asleep again.

i told myself.
I'LL NEVER LOSE HER.
in fact,
I'LL TRY MY BEST TO HOLD ON TO THE ONES I LOVE.
and that is you.
if you'd allow me to hold.